One of the worse things in life is when you realize you have lost your way. You wake up one day and watch Olympics and you see countless of athletes that are fulfilling their dreams or attempting to. You admire their strength and determination to conquer and fight but then you look at your life and see nothing to cheer about. There are mixed emotions because you feel happy for them and jealous at the same time because they fulfilled their dream.
You find yourself buying into everybody's dream but yours. You are fixated on other people's achievements. You procrastinate because you don't want to deal or face the issues; head on. You spend hours on Facebook making useless statements and comments on everyone's page. Then, spend more time with yourself, depressed and thinking where or how you've lost it.
I know I have lost mine and I'm not sure how to get it back. It is hard to pinpoint what my dream was to begin with because I thought it was quite clear and yet I'm sort of far from it. My plan was so simple when I began my journey and it just changed course. What happened to it? Fate...I guess. What do I do then? Force way back to my old plan? Do I search for or create a new one? I'm definitely not going back so I decided to start over. It is hard when you are almost arriving at the big 3 and 0 and have to start over or go back to the drawing board.
My uncle who died a while ago visited me in a dream. Yeah...I know it is weird; but dead people visit me in my dreams and I dream people close to me that are going to get pregnant. Yep...one of those weird things. Anyway, one of the things he said was, "It's just the little things sometimes. Don't focus too hard on the big picture. Spend more time managing the little simple and basic things." So my journey for the rest of the year is getting back to the basics; one small step at a time.
Maybe, if you have some of your own experiences in this context, you can leave a comment. Maybe I can learn a thing or two.
Guess I'm at the same point you are/were . So your Uncle's words were very "timely" ;quite enlightening; offering a degree of hope. So many times we want to get where we are going in one big leap, forgetting about small sure steps. I believe even the most complex objects can be broken down into very basic components. Sometimes we just need a reminder that the tortoise can not only get there but can in some instances win the race.
ReplyDeleteWell said.
ReplyDelete